Reflections · Transitions


“I am not ready yet”… “I am waiting for the right time to embark on that venture”… “I do not feel adequate enough”… “What will people say?”…

Very common questions, which you and I ask often, if not daily. Inadequacy is a disease we all suffer from one way or another, because of low self-esteem issues, past experiences, seeking approval which rarely happens, or ‘otherness’ syndrome (couldn’t think of a better term to describe, “what will others think of me or what I am doing” kind of situation) and the list is endless…

This took me back and I began to introspect. I realize how much I suffer from this and it is something I have always tried to break free from in vain and so what happens is, I begin to question, what if I started? or where would I be if I did it then?…I mean these are questions worth asking but if I ask and stop right there,a feeling of self-pity and regret crops up and this is not worth-it.

I am then taken back to scripture and I realize, hey! I am not alone! I know you go through the same too. By the way, if I focused on my inadequacy, this website, the blogs I do would not have happened in the first place! It took a lot of strength, courage, encouragement, commitment and God to start.

Back to scripture, I was just going through the characters I can easily relate with when it comes to feeling inadequate. The likes of Abram, Gideon, Jeremiah, Peter…I mean these people were ‘the least of these‘ but God chose to look beyond their inadequacy. I love how God does it! Let’s take a look shall we?

Abram is going about his business when… “Go from your country, your people and your father’s household to the land I will show you. This was the Lord telling him. Did Abram hesitate? Not at all, he went… (Genesis 12).

Gideon the ‘small boy’, actually, he described himself as the ‘the least in the family’. Guess what he was doing… Threshing wheat in a wine press to keep it from Midianites, then the angel of the Lord appeared to him and said, “The Lord is with you, mighty warrior.” Huh? Mighty warrior? I can picture Gideon looking over his shoulder to see who the angel was talking to…He was just a thresher at the moment! Despite the excuses he gave, Gideon was instructed by God as follows,“Go in the strength you have and save Israel out of Midian’s hand. Am I not sending you?” Isn’t it funny that he was threshing wheat to keep them from the people he was sent to war against?! My goodness! This one blew me away! (Judges 6)

Jeremiah is another one. God begins by assuring him how he knew him even before he was born, how He set him apart and all that, but still Jeremiah responds by pointing out his inadequacy…“I do not know how to speak; I am too young.” God does not really pay attention to that excuse whatsoever, he actually rebukes him and tells him not to say so. “You must go to everyone I send you to and say whatever I command you.  Do not be afraid of them, for I am with you and will rescue you.” (Jeremiah 1)

Peter, the most unstable and outspoken of all the disciples Jesus had. The one who said he would die for Jesus and ended up denying him three times! This is the same one who was bold enough to challenging Jesus, “Lord, if it’s you, tell me to come to you on the water.” and Jesus responded by saying, “come.” ( Matthew 14)

Beyond inadequacy, Christ sees us with the eyes of potential and faith-leaps. He is not stopped or shocked by our fears.It actually motivates him to challenge us to get out of our comfort zone as seen in the above examples. As much as you and I feel like we fall short or are inadequate for the task, Christ is telling us to go regardless. And like he did to Peter, He is calling us to come. As long as we fix our eyes on him, then we definitely won’t sink!

Dr. Carol Dweck of Stanford University, speaking on the subject of inadequacy said,

“This shift from outcome to process implies eventual success, and in the meantime, focuses on effort, strategy, resilience, and perseverance.”

Dr. Carol Dweck

It is never about what you and I get out of it, it is more about progressive growth since the first step. It is more about process than outcome. Always have that at the back of your mind.

That leap of faith is worth the while!

No matter how far I run, you lead me home, you extend your love…I’ve made up my mind, I am never going back…

Have an awesome week ahead and thanks a million for stopping by!

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